When much is given, much will be required. This means that you will constantly have to work to gain, maintain and continue to elevate in your purpose. Discovering what you are put on this planet for is an exciting experience, but it can also be a terrifying one.
Amid my journey, I relentlessly asked God to reveal my purpose and when he did, I realized that I didn’t fully understand what I was praying for. When I fully comprehended what fulfilling my purpose entailed, I found myself subconsciously procrastinating on many of the things I needed to accomplish.
The saying ‘be careful of what you wish for’ stands true because too often, people don’t consider what receiving the answers to their prayers really entail. It is work. Constant work, that in hindsight I realized I wasn’t mentally prepared for, despite praying for it.
I notably suffer from anxiety, so the more involved I became with mental health advocacy, the more of a challenge to stay the course it became. When situations became too heavy for me in the past, it triggered a complete withdrawal and shut down. I understand that this is how I’ve always operated in the past, but I also recognize the need to find new positive and conducive coping mechanisms.
Everyone struggles with something. No matter what social media, music videos, or the world on the surface depicts. Some people are just better at hiding it. We are all vessels in this world trying to find our way. Stand firm and don’t waver, because if God leads you to it, he’ll lead you through it.
I had believed that my journey ended in January of 2020, but I now understand that it was just the tip of the iceberg; I am still embarking on that path. God ‘s current call for me is to be transparent in ‘live time’, so that I can be a help to others.